(I should have) known…

I should have known...

When the Bay Street Theatre’s season seemed too good to be true
When we finally found the perfect venue
When we cheered to the “best year ever” on New Years Eve
When I bought most of our personalized wedding goods on Cyber Monday, in 2019
When we spent a year unpacking other people’s awkward silences
When our kitchen was large enough to fit all of our appliances
When I found everything I wanted for our Registry
When I wanted to bake our wedding cake
When no one would apologize
When I started to enjoy exercising and making friends
When I left a toxic workplace
When I found the perfect dress
When we started talking about the future
When I wrote our plans, in permanent marker, in my wedding binder
When we let ourselves get excited
When we found all of our perfect vendors
When I started my countdown 427 days before the wedding 
When I got four job offers 
When I did my own calligraphy
When I read about the Jewish Wedding now
When we picked our first dance song

…That the world would need to regain equilibrium eventually. You can’t find your soulmate, live happily ever after and have a fairytale wedding. But I would gladly give up the fairytale wedding for the life we hold in our hands. So dearly.